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Did the Jillian workout (brutal- I'm feeling the pain now that has built up over the last few days), ate some breakfast (salmon, egg, spinach-LOX), half a cup of black coffee, was able to do yoga before my daughters woke up. Now some writing & a shower before the kids wake up (hopefully.)
Having a background in psychology and having a natural
inquisitiveness to why things happen,
I like to see how actions (or words) lead to other actions. I realize I am not
always well-spoken in everyday unplanned conversation, so it is a focus of
improvement for me.
I think a portion of that uneasiness comes out in my overuse
of certain words; I run to them like a ‘default answer’ if they seem to be a least
bit applicable. In high school, I said ‘awesome’ or ‘cool’ to an absurd amount.
In college it was ‘rock on’ or ‘sweet.’ If only I could say ‘good job’ or ‘great
idea’ as often, I think it might have more of a benefit to those around me.
It was interesting this morning because I was exhausted...
more than usual. I’m hungry, I’m sore, I only slept about 5 hours last night,
blah blah blah... Katie and I both woke up grumbling about the workout. (I was
having one of those great dreams where the alarm woke me from the best part.) As
we woke up & started working out, I realized that when she complained, I
complained. When I would try to crack a joke, it really came out as a sarcastic
complaint --- & then I felt MORE
tired & suddenly weaker.
At some point, I realized that’s how my workouts go when I’m
alone. I start out with great enthusiasm, but when it gets hard I complain...
and that eventually leads to me literally saying ‘fuck this.’ This is why I
only ran about 5 times before my first 5k. I digress.
As our workout continued this morning, we made some jokes and talked about random things. It was a total distraction from the main in moving each muscle. This helped the time go by quicker and it was more enjoyable. The movements when we were laughing were easier for me and were sometimes not even noticed. Similarly, when I actually ran my first 5k it was fun and positive. I stopped once for about 15 seconds. I’d like to blame the stopping on our negative self-talk. (We were saying how we couldn’t wait for the race to be over because we were tired and once or twice we said ‘whew. I’m going to have to stop sometime.’ We still finished in a little over 30 minutes.)
Epiphany: When
the stress is on, good conversation is the best positive momentum. The chance
of
happiness leads to joy, while the chance of negativity leads to demise.
Great job getting up early and exercising!
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